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finding my bliss

A few weeks ago Pastor Nar and Jules Kennedy interviewed me for the Losing My Religion Podcast!

Check out my thoughts on vocation, the trinity, compassion, and the church.

Give it a listen HERE!

Following His Bliss

Pastor Nar and this week’s co-host, Jules Kennedy, talk with Drew Tatusko as he shares his story – a pilgrimage he frames within a Trinitarian framework. Drew came to know God the Father in the Catholic church, Jesus in the Presbyterian church and ‘got the Holy Ghost’ in the Church of God in Christ.

Drew finds himself at a precipice, rethinking what being a minister means and how he can convert his experience into what Joseph Campbell calls “following your bliss.” Drew briefly touches on his 13th Step Program for spiritually disaffected people.

Thirteen Principles

  1. We can only understand God when we admit our powerlessness to become like God.
  2. We will never fully know God.
  3. No religion can ever therefore claim to have sole authority of the Truth of God's revelation.
  4. Religions that make these exclusive claims to Truth demand conformity.
  5. Religions that demand conformity tend to abuse non-conformists who do not assimilate.
  6. In history God is continually revealed among the religious non-conformists.
  7. We live in a world of religions where conformity is valued more than non-conformity.
  8. This situation has resulted in countless cases of spiritual and religious abuse, about which many we never hear.
  9. Abuse and conformity also by necessity squeeze out the revelation of God in favor of the human desire for social control.
  10. Yet God desires those who do not conform in order to reveal who God is.
  11. Even as Jesus, Muhammad, Siddhartha Gautama, Moses, and others underwent persecution because their society challenged them, so those who do not conform to religious norms live today.
  12. Those who refuse to be assimilated into a religious structure lack a space to experience God's revelation in their midst and in community.
  13. This space is thus sorely needed and is what The Thirteenth Step is designed to be.

reconstruction with some old materials

Jonathan Brink hits the nail on the head when he says:

One of the real, valid criticisms of this process is that much of the (emergent) conversation was a deconstruction process. In other words, we were tearing down an old story but nothing new was offered to take its place. I get that concern. It’s easy to criticize what’s wrong with something and never offer something different. But I would also offer that the removing the old story was necessary for us to see something new.

In response to, and in addition to this conversation that Jonathan has started anew in this post and in his new book, I am going to re-post something I wrote back in February of this year with a few edits. I sayswant to address the "Ransom" theory afresh and put in in the context of the Patristic literature and in the the Eastern Orthodox liturgy. The critical piece is that the Church Fathers did not agree that God had to pay anything for human sin. Moreover, it is also clear that Adam and Eve are interpreted not as literal man and woman, but as representative of the universal condition of man and woman and the human nature. It is clear that in this tradition, counter to evangelicalism or the Reformed tradition, that the human will is indeed free even if that freedom is severely impaired.

In a previous post of mine on original sin, the discussion inevitably lead to the atonement. I have voiced my disagreement with the satisfaction theory of the atonement before.

To heal the issue of an imperfect liberty in human nature which we see active in Adam and Eve, God becomes incarnate in order to fuse the divine nature with human nature and to fuse divine will with human will in a perfect union. It is in the hypostatic union of Christ that we see the image of what God intended humanity to be. It is not about satisfying God's law of death as a payment for sin on the cross that human nature is redeemed. It is rather in the act of God condescending to human nature that this nature becomes what true human being that always intended to be. Hence, the words of this hymn (my emphasis):

The King of the heavenly hosts wears a crown of thorns. The One who clothed the heavens in clouds, is wrapped in mock purple. He who freed Adam in the Jordan, is buffeted with blows. The bridegroom of the Church is transfixed with nails. The virgin’s Son is pierced with a lance.

We worship Your passion, O Christ. (3x)

Show us now Your glorious resurrection.

The cross is not God satisfying God's law through death, but of true humanity emptying itself of its own will to submit to the will of God in absolute obedience – an obedience that results in death.The cross is of the hypostatic union of humanity and the Triune God where Jesus willfully empties himself of divinity in submission to the world. This kenosis as Paul calls it in his letter to the Philippians, does not occur on the cross alone as if Christ had not emptied his human will for the sake of the divine will before this point. Christ empties his human will at his baptism and it is in this self-emptying action which begins his ministry, his death of human will in submission, that Adam's nature is redeemed. If Adam was alienated from God in disobedience, it is here where Christ reveals his perfect union of God and human in absolute obedience.

Sin is not a simple act of disobedience or some metaphysical nature, it is the bondage of the will, imprisoned by the conditions of an imperfect and contingent world. The first act of disobedience shows that humanity sold out to everything not God and re-imaged it to be God in the most heinous act of idolatry. If sin is what holds the human will captive, it is the obedience of Christ that sets it free.

If we are only set free with some kind of payment rendered on the cross, who is being paid the ransom to set us free? And if it is only this event that gives the gift of freedom, does the union of God and human in the person of Christ mean little until that occurs? Christ is not required to strike some legal bargain as if it is the Law that is the foundation of the world.

It is Christ himself who is the foundation of the world. The satisfaction theory divides and confuses the being of the Triune God in order to serve and unify a Law that does not save, but condemns and enslaves (Romans 7:6 for one). Through obedience as a direct result of the Incarnation, Christ fulfils the Law and releases humanity from the captivity of sin replacing it with a new Law of love and grace received through faith. As Gregory of Nazianzen wrote:

To whom was that blood offered that was shed for us, and why was it shed? I mean the precious and glorious blood of God, the blood of the High Priest and of the Sacrifice. We were in bondage to the devil and sold under sin, having become corrupt through our concupiscence. Now, since a ransom is paid to him who holds us in his power, I ask to whom such a price was offered and why? If to the devil, it is outrageous! The robber receives the ransom, not only from God, but a ransom consisting of God himself. He demands so exorbitant a payment for his tyranny that it would have been right for him to have freed us altogether. But if the price is offered to the Father, I ask first of all, how? For it was not the Father who held us captive. Why then should be blood of His only begotten Son please the Father, who would not even receive Isaac when he was offered as a whole burnt offering by Abraham, but replaced the human sacrifice with a ram? Is it not evident that the Father accepts the sacrifice not because he demanded it or because He felt any need for it, but on account of economy: because man must be sanctified by the humanity of God, and God Himself must deliver us by overcoming the tyrant through His own power, and drawing us to Himself by the mediation of the Son who effects this all for the honor of God, to whom He was obedient in everything… What remains to be said shall be covered with a reverent silence… (In sanctum Pascha, or. XLV, 22’, P.G., t 36, 653 AB, quoted in Lossky, Mystical Theology, p. 153.)

The followers of Christ have been in a wilderness in the new Exodus, wandering in the desert of humanity performing the same errors in generations past. The witness of Christ's work and personhood are to be our guide and foundation, not adherence to the Law as if to suggest we are to ignore the work of Christ to fulfil it. Time for Christians to act like the free and forgiven people they espouse to be. Forgiving others and forgiving ourselves while acting with compassion and grace towards others is the only sign that Christians have an understanding of this, the true meaning of the Gospel.

Much of the problem with American Christianity, and in particular Protestant traditions, is an amnesia of things that happened between Paul and Augustine, and then between Augustine and Luther. In my own training in a "flagship" Protestant seminary, we learned short versions of the ante-Nicene Church fathers, but failed to grasp the depth of their own processing of God's revelation to them. This has resulted in a theology with shallow roots. Rather than deconstruct tradition, as Jonathan notes was perhaps necessary, it is indeed time to re-root ourselves in the rich soils of the Holy, Apostolic, and Catholic body of Christ in history.

I argue that it must begin with a re-commitment to the doctrine of the Trinity as formulated by the Church Fathers and Mothers and preserved in Eastern Orthodoxy. Since Protestantism exists in relationship to Medieval Catholicism, this segment of Christianity has been silenced in all of our debates, until only recently. The economy of God as kenosis and the economy of humanity to seek union with God as a result of that divine kenosis is central and a ground to the Christian faith.

In the words of Athanasius, "God became man so that man might become a god." May we feed off of this mystical theological tradition that the Body of Christ may unite all who the Holy Spirit calls to being and new life.

the thirteenth step

As one who has felt spiritually broken more times than I can remember or recall, I felt a certain camaraderie at Trans4m. It amazed me at how many in the continued development of Emergence Christianity have been abused, rejected, dehumanized, and cast out of the churches they so dearly cherished for many many years. This was not just a "gay" issue but one that straight people and many others expressed. It was troubling to hear.

This lead me to re-think the problem of the little societies we call churches. People create them and people have a tendency to desire power when it is available. Hierarchies have developed and will continue to as long as there are clear class differences between the educated and wealthy and all the have-nots, just for one.

However, it occurred to me while listening to Kathy Escobar talk about The Refuge, that Alcoholics Anonymous is both a deeply spiritual and completely non-hierarchical place for the broken to heal each other. The expertise of the community is not from a degree in counseling, or theology, but from experience. Personal vulnerability and personal stories are what drive the Program.

I have an intimate experience with the Program from several members of my family. If there was ever a place where church happened that was not church, it was there, every Saturday afternoon in the middle of dingy rooms with dingy ashtrays where doctors and lawyers sat by street people on a regular basis. Everyone in that room was, and is, powerless: the first step.

That's not what we see in church. We see a pastor or a preacher stand on high as an authority over the Word of God and over the sins of the people. The people do not share much but receive the Word from a single source on high. Confession is not one's personal story told to the others in the chapel, but something pre-fabricated. The meals can only happen as sacraments by someone basically voted to wield that authority over the people. There are clergy, and there are non-clergy. Everything screams "conform to this set of principles and you will find the Kingdom of God." Church is more often than not a divisive social structure.

No wonder why we are losing young adults. They are seeking intimate and deep relationships and most church structures are just not designed to do that. It's as if they want home made cookies but the church gives them a package of over-priced Oreos while telling them it's better. Something needs to meet these rightfully disaffected explorers who want to understand something deeper, richer, and better not from clergy but from each other.

This is why I am going to begin working on a Program for the spiritually disaffected and for those who want to jump in the deep end of spirituality in a world that has for the most part lost its nerve to do so. I have drafted a few Principles and Characteristics that have been rolling in my brain for two years. The Characteristics actually correspond to each of the Principles for cohesiveness.

I am willing to take this risk and I am betting that in my conservative, blue-collar, small town, these folks are out there. I am one of them. AA started with a conversation between two alcoholics who wanted to change. It is now a global phenomenon that works, as each meeting affirms in a moment of benediction and charge. Why can't we also take church and our healing that seriously? I want to. I need to. Do you?

Thirteen Principles

  1. We can only understand God when we admit our powerlessness to become like God.
  2. We will never fully know God.
  3. No religion can ever therefore claim to have sole authority of the Truth of God's revelation.
  4. Religions that make these exclusive claims to Truth demand conformity.
  5. Religions that demand conformity tend to abuse non-conformists who do not assimilate.
  6. In history God is continually revealed among the religious non-conformists.
  7. We live in a world of religions where conformity is valued more than non-conformity.
  8. This situation has resulted in countless cases of spiritual and religious abuse, about which many we never hear.
  9. Abuse and conformity also by necessity squeeze out the revelation of God in favor of the human desire for social control.
  10. Yet God desires those who do not conform in order to reveal who God is.
  11. Even as Jesus, Muhammad, Siddhartha Gautama, Moses, and others underwent persecution because their society challenged them, so those who do not conform to religious norms live today.
  12. Those who refuse to be assimilated into a religious structure lack a space to experience God's revelation in their midst and in community.
  13. This space is thus sorely needed and is what The Thirteenth Step is designed to be.

    We are:
  1. Powerless
  2. Incomplete
  3. Mindful
  4. Non-conformist
  5. Healing
  6. Loved
  7. Unique
  8. Compassionate
  9. Receptive
  10. Attentive
  11. Whole
  12. Together
  13. Safe

wives, be subject to your husbands…

Theresa Seeber asks a lot of vital and important questions that demand our constant attention. I believe an improper and incoherent set of answers to these questions and a corrosive understanding of Scripture have done nothing but destroy the fabric of our relationships from the inside out. We have taken Ephesians 5:21-33 and used it to support patriarchy and destructive views of obedience in the Church.

Be subject to one another out of reverence for Christ.

Wives, be subject to your husbands as you are to the Lord. For the husband is the head of the wife just as Christ is the head of the church, the body of which he is the Saviour. Just as the church is subject to Christ, so also wives ought to be, in everything, to their husbands.

Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her, in order to make her holy by cleansing her with the washing of water by the word, so as to present the church to himself in splendour, without a spot or wrinkle or anything of the kind—yes, so that she may be holy and without blemish. In the same way, husbands should love their wives as they do their own bodies. He who loves his wife loves himself. For no one ever hates his own body, but he nourishes and tenderly cares for it, just as Christ does for the church, because we are members of his body. ‘For this reason a man will leave his father and mother and be joined to his wife, and the two will become one flesh.’ This is a great mystery, and I am applying it to Christ and the church. Each of you, however, should love his wife as himself, and a wife should respect her husband.

Question 1: What problem was the author of Ephesians addressing here? Why go into this to the specific church at the time in a specific culture where patriarchy was normative? The trap that we have set for ourselves is that we are trying to take letters written for specific purposes for specific situations and then assuming that these personal letters are eternal Truth. I think that’s patently absurd because it leads to incoherent positions that require consistent qualification. According to the worldview here and in 1 Corinthians women should also wear head coverings, cover their bodies completely, and sit in a separate place than men. See how Muslims worship Allah. Not many evangelical churches do these practices thinking they were unimportant. That patently false and incoherent.

Let's turn the problem back to us. Why are we so sure that wives should do whatever the hell their husbands tell them, yet those other ritual practices are optional? Perhaps the answer is that maintaining patriarchy is more important to a flawed and fallen image of masculinity in Western culture.

This is Christ’s sacrifice – sacrificing the divine will to be subject to human authority in order to redeem it. Likewise, the husband needs to sacrifice his will to that of his wife’s. Is it possible to have authority through submission as an act of love? Common sense says no, but common sense is flawed. The resurrection is absurd and thus, husbands need to be as absurd with their self-sacrificial love. It’s a paradoxical and radical kind of authority expressed here that fundamentally destroys patriarchy from the inside out.

Question 2: Is it possible for any human being to “make” another human being pure? No. Not if Christ is the one means for this to be possible. This is about caring for your wife as you care for your own body. This means that you have to live a life of love and self-sacrifice and work to see that your wife is doing likewise. This is not as a command to lord purity laws over your wife, but to support her flourishing as a child of God.

Question 3: The entire passage ends with a confession that this is a mystery! The kernel of truth is the mystery itself expressed simply as: “Each of you, however, should love his wife as himself, and a wife should respect her husband.” Respect does not mean “obey whatever he says.” What if your husband is not acting in relationship to you as Christ acts with respect to the church? What if your husband is lording over you in a way that Jesus himself did not behave towards women who were cast out of their own towns and religious practices due to their “unclean” status? We have a failed and sinful tradition of assuming that obedience in marriage is like that of a child and men have gotten away with treating their wives as children, NOT as one flesh of mutual giving and receiving of self-sacrificial love and respect. So are you a child or a wife? Perhaps you are neither, but a slave?

Finally, this passage is a metaphor about what imitating God in Christ should look like. Period. That’s why it is a mystery (which the Catholic church would translate as a sacrament). So why not let it be a mystery and live in love? Don’t be a slave or a child, but a wife. Respect means that you do not let your husband get away with behaving unlike Christ. So see how it was that Christ treated the women around him, and then hold your husband to a higher standard because unlike the women that Jesus came into contact with, you and he are “one flesh.” Not to hold him accountable for that is not an act of respect. It is an act of ignorance. Here wives are to respect their husbands for the sake of God and not the husband himself.

the triumphal entry turned into a blood-thirsty mob

Good Friday is evil. There is nothing "good" about it. After all what do Christians say in their confessions about the crucifixion? This is what Protestants all over will say on Esater Sunday about the crucifixion as a confession of faith:

(Jesus) suffered under Pontius Pilate,
was crucified, dead, and buried;

He descended into hell.

There is a strange fascination with many Christians that looks at the cross as a gift. It is the punishment of sin that we don't have to endure because God decided to do it to his Son. For that we are to be thankful. Thankful? For a God who kills off his only son? We are to be thankful for a God who commits human sacrifice after stopping Abraham from killing Isaac? After all Scripture also says:

Psalm 51:15-17
15 O Lord, open my lips,
That my mouth may declare Your praise.
16 For You do not delight in sacrifice, otherwise I would give it;
You are not pleased with burnt offering.
17 The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit;
A broken and a contrite heart, O God, You will not despise.

And again in Amos 5:

Even though you bring me burnt offerings and grain offerings,
I will not accept them.
Though you bring choice fellowship offerings, [a]
I will have no regard for them.

Despite the proclamation in Hebrews 10:

First he said, "Sacrifices and offerings, burnt offerings and sin offerings you did not desire, nor were you pleased with them" (although the law required them to be made). Then he said, "Here I am, I have come to do your will." He sets aside the first to establish the second. 10And by that will, we have been made holy through the sacrifice of the body of Jesus Christ once for all.

There is a serious inconsistency here (there are other passages of the same ilk). Either God despises these sacrifices or God does not. The way Hebrews really reads is that Jesus is not a literal sacrifice of flesh to satiate God's blood-thirst, but a sacrifice of will. Jesus sacrifices human will in order to follow the will of God. This sacrifice leads him directly to the cross. Why? Jesus already tells us in a parable in Matthew 21:

‘Listen to another parable. There was a landowner who planted a vineyard, put a fence around it, dug a wine press in it, and built a watch-tower. Then he leased it to tenants and went to another country.When the harvest time had come, he sent his slaves to the tenants to collect his produce. But the tenants seized his slaves and beat one, killed another, and stoned another. Again he sent other slaves, more than the first; and they treated them in the same way. Finally he sent his son to them, saying, “They will respect my son.” But when the tenants saw the son, they said to themselves, “This is the heir; come, let us kill him and get his inheritance.” So they seized him, threw him out of the vineyard, and killed him. Now when the owner of the vineyard comes, what will he do to those tenants?’ They said to him, ‘He will put those wretches to a miserable death, and lease the vineyard to other tenants who will give him the produce at the harvest time.’

Jesus said to them, ‘Have you never read in the scriptures:
“The stone that the builders rejected
has become the cornerstone;
this was the Lord’s doing,
and it is amazing in our eyes”?

Jesus came as a human being who sacrificed his human will fully in order to observe the will of God. When the two wills have been so intertwined this becomes the true son of God. His true divinity is his true humanity. One would think that this would be a good death on the cross. Of one who fought the good fight to reveal the Kingdom of God as a hero. But it's not. As Brandon Mouser says today:

He’s hanging on a cross and asks God, why he’s doing this to him. Why, in this hour when it would be tops to have the one person he should be able to count on to be there and offer comfort, why has God left him?

And God responds with a most deafening silence.

Crickets.

This is not a good death. It's an horrific death. The only people to blame are people; the same people who welcomed him as an ironic king demand his death and torture under Roman law. And it gets worse. Even with Jesus, the only one who had fully conformed to the will of God, hanging in torture on a cross as a result of his obedience, God still despises the sacrifice. It is the logical result of sin.

Good Friday is not good. Good Friday is the day when the holy becomes grotesque.

We now have to sit in somber mediation for the evils that we do that continue try to kill off God and place humankind above who God is.

Jesus is dead. God is dead.

If we cannot love Jesus dead, we cannot love him when he rises on Sunday.

To put this cart before the horse is perhaps the greatest blasphemy in the history of the Christian church.